So, you had it hard, you have a lot going on and you got a crazy back story. Don’t we all?! Show me one person who doesn’t. 85% of Americans come from dysfunctional families so what you have been through doesn’t make you special, how you persevered in spite of what you have been through is what makes you special. So stop whining. Stop waiting for someone to give you a fish or even teach you how. Get off your ass and get your own damn fish!